help me JPA..(starving mode)

Assalamualaikum..

dear miss J..
i remember on that time, u asking me to stay, place that i dream nights and days, i waited 2 years to go there, but at the end of it, u just ripped it away. u know it was hard to me but i never object ur decision coz i know u know better, u know what is good for me. i cried but what can i do some more besides accept your decision. but still i stay by ur side. i never attempt to find someone else. how loyal am i. but why u did this to me?

dear miss J..
i remember on the first sem.. u asking me to meet u at putrajaya, i went there. u asking me to call, i called even only on the 5th u answer it. u asked me to emel u, i emel even on that time, it was hard to find the internet connection. i never complaint. i know u are the only one but why u did this to me?

dear miss J..
last sem, u asked me to meet u. i went there even. i dress up, wearing a necktie, wore shining shoes, put some gel on my hair. u know i got dynamic class on that day, miss Zaimah plan to teach the last chapter but i skipped that class even i know it was so important. i dont wanna let u disappointed. but why u did this to me?

dear miss J..
u asked me to keep pointer above 2.5. if i'm not, u will leave me. i work hard night and day, burning the midnight oil, to keep that promise. but why u did this to me?

dear miss J..
all i'm asking is to keep ur promise, never hold it on, do ur job, cz if u are not, someone here will suffer, someone here will starving, gasping for food, find a way to earn extra money. that all!!

dear miss J..
u know rite im 22 this year, what ever ur decision is, to postpone, to skip or whatever it is, everything i will take in account when i deliver my vote.

so miss J..
i hope u understand my situation. i have to buy so many books, to pay house rental, and other utilities. plz plz..

p/s-orait, this blog entirely i dedicated to my beloved step mother, Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam (JPA).